Cannon fodder (n) - military soldiers who run the risk of being wounded or killed in warfare.
This noun seemed appropriate for the title of my blog because, as a self-published author, there are many days I feel my dreams are on the verge of being killed, if not merely wounded. Listen, I don't want your pity or want to sound depressing, but any artist will tell you, they wish they were further.
Having an author's dream is like stepping off that Greyhound bus in Hollywood, filled with the talent and enthusiasm, thinking that you're the next "big thing". We all feel our novels are going to be the J. K. Rowling's breakthrough. Realistically, we are just hoping that someone likes the words we write. Even when we tell family friends about our new chapters, or new inspirations, or what our writer's group is discussing, we just know in the back of their minds they're thinking, "Yeah, right, Sylvia. Bless your heart. Hope you grow out of it soon."
Writing...or story telling as I like to define my passion...is putting the characters that are shouting in your head every day out for public viewing; Running the risk of scrutiny, critiques, rudeness, and downright meanness. But every so often, we are rewarded with kindness, praise, helpfulness, and reader's joy.
I don't mind being cannon fodder for writing. It's the risk a writer has to take.
I'm just sayin"....